I don’t want equality.
I don’t want you to feel like you must fight me for a position of authority in our relationship. That you must assert yourself in the face of my emotional whims. I don’t want you to feel like we both have something to prove, and your assertion of such points must trump mine. I desire not to corner you, belligerently belittling your spirit for my personal validation. To feel power over a threat, merely a phantom. To place you ahead does not render me last.
There are no wars for power here.
I view myself not as beneath you, but beside you. Albeit, preferring a view from slightly behind the curve of your muscular shoulder, the force of your strength leading me forward with each step. You guide me. You lead me. I have no desire to be directly beside you. I love you in the lead. Forever keeping in step with you, with eyes alert to awaiting obstacles. We will traverse them with relative ease made of a balance found between two uniquely different, naturally complementary, forces.
When I’m on my knees before you, I don’t feel devalued; rather, I feel elevated beyond the physical position of my body. I feel larger than life and greater than the sum of my parts. With the downward caress of your strong hand through my hair, I am elevated in my service to you. Your eyes cast downward, connecting with mine, render me gracious for your presence. Gracious for your presence that is not only physical, but emotional; not simply loving, but loyal to the conservancy of my being. For your downcast gaze is hardly one of degradation, but admiration.
A very strong and capable woman, indeed. But, I need not prove to you my independence by forgoing my desire to serve you well. I need not persistently deny your request to provide aid, to sooth my upsets, or to supportively criticize, in order to reason with my facility. My strength unveiled with my submission. The fortitude necessary to forge the iron, strong enough to withstand a blow, however vulnerable to the fire. You, my weakness. You, my fire. I burn in your presence. I melt for your power.
I need not do what you can do to feel equal. I need not do it better. I need only to provide to you the soul of a woman who has devoted her life to complementing you. Where you are right, I will make up the left; whenever you grow far, I will pull you near. If you shall find yourself sinking, I shall elevate you. A dance of mutual attendance. A dance of complementary forces, neither one in need of convincing the other of our position. Neither one in need of demanding their value as greater. No need to rehearse for the sake of a convincing performance. Not a single toe stepped upon. Complementary.
The fantasies that lurk behind the fortress you’ve built to preserve yourself from the fray, you offer them to me. The darkest corners where monsters are rumored to thrive; I see beautiful beasts of burden, grown angry carrying the load of societal pressures. I offer comfort, lure them from the recessed corners and hold them securely. The beast is aggressive, but I feel no fear of harm. The beast is physical, but I fear no attack. The beast is rough, but softens at my caress. I feel the beast tremor as I caress over the scars that form trails along his hide. I remove his burden. The beast has no need to conceal any longer. The beast is in no need of taming, nor training; in no need of demasculinization.
I envelop him in my feminine embrace. Press upon his flesh the breasts of a woman for pleasure not purpose. Caress with the touch of delicacy instead of efficiency. A body with the curves composed of sensuality, not simply capability. A beautiful cunt to converse the most intimate of conversations, not an agenda. A woman. His woman. His needs are my needs, and my needs are his. In this, we are freed.